Miss · Cornelia · Rothschild

Dear Journal,


I am a ward of the ETC, now, and proudly so. The Professor asked me the other day, and of course I consented. How happy I am that he asked me! It fills me with relief, to know that I am under the protection of others.


The end of this year has been horrible. In many ways I feel like a wicked, awful person. I miss Sir, and look longingly to the past. But even if I were to travel back there -- a feat which could be accomplished in but a moment -- my mind, my heart, would not be the same. I am forever changed.


I think that I am fully mired in my adolescence, now, and as Lady Darkling said, "Welcome to Hell."


But I know, after speaking with some of my dear friends, that I am not wicked and awful. Mr. Hassanov helped me to see that I do not truly hate anyone, even if I might feel like I do. (Are things as ever as simple as they seem?) Mr. Tairov offered me balance and allowed me to sound out my opinions against him, and I find that he is wise and gentle. Mr. Dagger reminded me that I would never act in an unseemly way without provocation, and that my good friends understand this. I will endeavor to do their good opinions justice.


After all, I am the Lady of Minesfield Park, now. Lady Lia. It sounds very odd.


But this entry is not about me. I wanted to say how much I truly wish that every one of my family and friends, old and new, has a wonderful year. I hope that the Great Engineer of All Things smiles down upon us, creations all, and aids us on our different journeys. I hope that we all find true love, and happiness, and a place for ourselves. I hope that we are never alone.


Love,


Lia


(Typist: I stumbled across this video late last night. I'd heard the song before, but never seen the film. For some reason, it strikes me as a futuristic Lia, her personality downloaded into a computer. And the song is very much her anthem to Caledon. Especially the line, "I don't believe I'd love somebody just to pass the time." I truly love all of you.)